| What's up fags? |
[Mar. 11th, 2007|03:50 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | My Apartment | ] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| |  drunk | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Ratatat - Wildcat | ] |
Wow, livejournal has changed a fuckload since the last I saw it? I love that I use firefox btw and it points out all the spelling errors that I have. Apparently so far these are my current spelling errors:
livejournal
fuckload
firefox
btw
One would imagine "Firefox" would consider itself to be an actual word. So I just wanted to say, that yes I've read all my past journal entries (well most) and would like to say that wow, I'm one whiny fucking bitch!
Here's to the future, and fake daylight savings times!
Who wants to hang wooden owls?
Next week is St. Patrick's Day. Maybe if you're all lucky I'll update this fuckin thing. Later fuckers!
Oh... I'm 195 now but I'm a fat pig so... fuck that previous entry that said I wanted to get to 195... I have no willpower that's all... ok i'm rambling out loud to myself now.
Time for some V!
V for Vendetta that is! |
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| And so this is goodbye. |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|04:11 pm] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| |  calm | ] |
My resolution is to be true to myself.
It's always tough to follow the light at first, as bright as it is. But in time your eyes adjust, and everything becomes clear.
And so it is.
Goodbye. |
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| Sometimes |
[Dec. 26th, 2005|08:18 pm] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| |  disheartened | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Paulson - Under Crowns | ] |
Sometimes I wish there was just a quick fix. I know that takes any meaning out of it... but it's just sometimes... |
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| So here I am |
[Dec. 23rd, 2005|02:52 pm] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Paulson - Window Frames | ] |
I'm at work at the moment and there's like nobody here. lol. So needless to say I'm kind of slacking off on what I'm supposed to be doing. I feel pretty guilty about that but oh well... it's just one of those days you know? I think I'm playing pool in about 7 minutes. 9 ball baby!
Around these times of years my heart is always heavy but it's not because of one or even several females. It's just how it is. Yeah so I'd like to have somebody around now but that's just now how things work out right now and it's no big deal. It's just getting through these times without driving myself crazy you know? It's ok though cause I'm getting my female attention time in at least, between hangin out with Jen, Meg, Stacey, Daniella, Tori and the like, it's been fun. It's certainly a lot better than nothing and makes me feel loved even if only for a short while.
I'm listening to this band called 'Paulson' and they're pretty good. Kind of Incubus meets Dredg meets another band that Gack and I can neither think of. Check em out here. affectionate... wups... stupid cut and paste. I was looking for synonyms(sp) for 'loving' and affectionate was one of them. Heh...
http://www.purevolume.com/paulson
I'm listening to Window Frames right now and it's great. Here's some sample lyrics...
Last night you were next to me when the fire alarm went off
We held each other on the feather bed quiet and calm
But it was not the same, the names were changed
And the window frames were in the wrong place
In my dreams where I didn't mess everything up
Good stuff.
Well tonight there's a holiday party at Kevin's that's formal wear and I'll be attending. The fuck am I saying? It's a CHRISTMAS party. He has 3 females cleaning since they said they would... so naturally Kevin being Kevin left the apartment as messy as possible. It should be a fun night... I'm not in the mood for anything too crazy tonight though so if things get out of hand I'll be ducking out early. I've had a good week as I've gotten out some more and tonight should be no exception. Here's to a good time.
Here's to you. |
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| Watch the sky for me... |
[Dec. 22nd, 2005|02:13 pm] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Powerman 5000 - Watch The Sky For Me | ] |
Rest assured listener, that my time here has not been easy, and what you have just heard was not fiction...
Although...
In many a desperate moment, I most certainly wish it had been.
It's over for now, it seems...
Or at least... until yesterday begins again...
tomorrow... tomorrow... tomorrow... tomorrow...
Watch the sky for me
Watch the night
I been there for you
In starlight... right...
As your feet
Touch the ground
I'll be floating along
Watch the sky for me
Tonight.
Just as every moment
Leads you to the past
Just as everything
Is gone...
I'm the one you need to know
That there is someone else
Just as this is now...
Goodbye...
Watch the sky for me
Watch the night
Cause I'll be there for you
In starlight...
As your feet they touch the ground
I'll be
Floating along...
Watch the sky for me
Tonight.
...Yeah...
Goodnight. |
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| And I don't know if it's the cold intention slide |
[Dec. 12th, 2005|11:34 pm] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Interpol - Obstacle 1 | ] |
Just taking me down...
So yeah I think I'm cursed... I don't know how I get put into some of the positions I'm thrown into... but it's like what the fuck? I can see how people might think I'm some mastermind behind everyone's relationship but it's just not the case. I made one freakin mistake and now I'm the fucking 'expert' and 'that guy.' It's frustrating as all hell.
Beyond that, I finally took another step foward in some areas in life and I feel free again. I pretty much had myself as my own prisioner by saving every single little thing just in case. You know... JUST IN CASE... well, fuck just in case. Shit is gone now and it's perfectly ok by me. It's just one of those tough things you know? Where things mean a lot to you and it's just getting yourself to 'do it' and get it over with that's the hardest.
In any event... life moves foward as usual. Full Steam Ahead. |
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| It's up to me know turn on the bright lights! |
[Dec. 3rd, 2005|03:01 am] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| | ecstatic | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Interpol - Obstacle 1 | ] |
So Boston owns... Jess Gack and I went into Boston for our friend's birthday at the Purple Shamrock and it was a fuckin great time. Pretty cheap beer and lots of it.
Shit... what can I really say? It was just a fuckin fun ass time had by all... I can't even type right now... |
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| I will also do this... |
[Nov. 19th, 2005|01:26 pm] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| |  envious | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Deathcab for Cutie - Soul Meets Body | ] |
TEN FIRSTS
First Best Friend: Jacob Karcher
First Screen Name: Marvin1495
First Pet: Renee
First Piercing: Tongue
First Crush: Nicole Doucette
First CD: Offspring - Smash
First Car: 88 Chevy Nova
First Bad Haircut: All of my hair cuts
First Stuffed Animal: Bosley Bunny (wewt)
Where's the 10th first?
NINE LASTS
Last Alcholic Beverage: Harpoon IPA
Last Car ride: Last night on the way back from Harry Potter
Last Movie Seen: Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
Last Phone Call: To Meg last night
Last Cd Played: Dredg
Last Bubble bath: A few months ago... although no bubbles... those salt things in a hot tub it was leet
Last time you Cried: The other day when I couldn't stop yawning
Last time you laughed: Not 10 minutes ago (I'm always laughing)
Last time you fell: I don't remember... but I stapled myself about an hour ago.
EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: Yes
Have you ever been arrested: Me? Nope. I'm far too elite
Have you ever skinny dipped: Yeah
Have you ever been on tv: Yup
Have you ever kissed someone, and then regreted it?: Yup
Have you ever yelled at someone in public?: Yup
Have you ever purposefully teased? Yup
SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING:
1. Socks
2. Wife beater
3. Pajama pants
4. Boxers
5. Old tshirt
6. Hair
7. Uhhh... my tongue ring?
SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. I woke up
2. I put on more clothing
3. I ate cereal
4. I watched Multiplicity
5. I posted a bulletein on Myspace because I hate chainletters
6. I cursed my internet connection
FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ALMOST ANYTHING TO
1. Bridge
2. My brother Josh
3. My Mom
4. Shawn
THREE CHOICES
1. Hot or cold: Cold
2. Black or white: Black
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Have a game I've designed released
2. Be happy
ONE THING YOU REGRET
1. Good question |
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| How's this? Don't count... only an old fuckin woman counts... |
[Nov. 7th, 2005|10:01 am] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | The Postal Service - Such Great Heights | ] |
Yeah so what's happening out there LJ world? I'm currently at work and it's 10:02am. I don't know what kind of mood I'm in I guess I'm feelin a bit bitter because I feel I've been ripped on the entire weekend. Between Politics and my online communities I feel pretty stupid.
Fuck, all I wanted to do was bitch about this stupid mod for Enemy Territory that absolutely sucks my cock because of how horrible it is... and all my forum buddies gang up on me and shit. Man... rough weekend but not so much. I did have my good times, so I'm happy.
I feel like there's something I need to do this week but I don't remember or know.
I've been pretty consistant with going to the gym and eating healthier so I'm feelin good about that. I'm between 182 and 186 depending on the day apparently, but it still impresses me. I just gotta keep at it... well actually what I need to keep up with is cardio which I don't do enough of... I'll go may be twice a week but I really need to do at least 3 sessions damn it! Oh well I blame work since I didn't get out until past 9 a few times and the Y closes at 9:30... so good game there. I think my goal is to get to 195, as I think that would be perfect for me. I mean I'm 6'2 so I can afford to be that weight *I think* right? So about 10 more pounds to go wewt.
Well that's it for me for now. I'm kinda down but I'm happy too so, that's good. Hopefully things'll continue to improve and go my way. It's gonna be a good time. |
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| Before you go... there is something more to say |
[Nov. 1st, 2005|09:00 pm] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Dredg - Sorry But It's Over | ] |
Distorted, and complicated
I'm sorry but it's over
Essential to awaken
I'm moving..
Here we are,
That's what it's all about
I'm sorry but its over
To love here,
And to love this
I'm finally breathing
Before you go, there is something more to say
Before you go, there is something more to say
Persistent resentment,
I'm sorry but its over
Seduction for destruction
I'm finally breathing
Before you go, there is something more to say
Before you go, there is something more to say
Before you go, there is something more to say |
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| Just another night inside |
[Oct. 21st, 2005|10:02 pm] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| | pissed off | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Darude - Out of Control | ] |
Ugh...
So yeah I had plans for the entire weekend to go to Keene or whatever in New Hampshire with Joe Delisi, Ryan Orlando, Donny Lowe and Delisi's brother... It was gonna be a pretty good time too from what I was told. I said hell yeah I'll go just so long as I don't have to drive. Things were all set when Donny apparently canceled and Ryan wanted me to drive. Now... I have to be honest, I'm fucking sick and tired of driving. All the times I drove to Florida and back, it was just me. I delivered pizza for a million years and now my current job is in Westwood which entails over 600 miles a week. Driving for an additional 4 hours altogether (especially after likely being hung over on Sunday) is NOT my idea of a good time.
It's just fucking bullshit... things don't ever seem to pan out... I'm always the guy that ends up having to drive. Be it concerts, to school, the mall (well I have Gack drive to the mall now) or whatever. It's just fucking horseshit and I'm through with it.
So I've spent most of my night playing Quake 4 which is a great game but I can't stand some of the fucking monsters in it. There's these one dudes with fucking spikes on their arms that do some lightning attack etc... that's all cake but their mother fucking melee kills me in like one hit every fucking time! And the autosaves don't happen enough, and I have to sit through 30 minutes of in game cut scene things and scripted events and it's so fucking annoying!
FUCK!
My only other plans for tonight were to see the DOOM movie but everyone left before my plans got fucked up. So I was talkin to Meg and I probably would have hung out with her if she gave me a call. Well it's 10:07 and I have 20 bucks that says I'm not getting that call. Great fucking start to the weekend.
So fuck you. I'm going to make myself a drink and watch TV.
Can I say fuck one more time!
FUCK! |
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| NIN |
[Oct. 2nd, 2005|04:28 am] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| | annoyed | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Nine Inch Nails - Sunspots | ] |
Sunspots
Cast a glare in my eye
Sometimes
I forget I'm alive
I feel it coming
And I gotta get out of its way
I hear it callin
And I come cause I can't disobey
I should not listen
And I shouldn't listen
But I do
Yes I do
She turns me on
She makes me real
I have to apologize
For the way I feel
My life it seems has taken a turn
Why in the name of god would I ever want to return
Peel off our skin we're gonna burn what we were to the ground
Fuck in the fire and we'll spread the ashes around
I wanna kill away the rest of what's left and I do
Yes I do
She turns me on
She makes me real
I have to apologize
For the way I feel
AND NOTHING CAN STOP ME NOW!
THERE IS NOTHING TO FEAR!
AND EVERYTHING I'D EVER WANT!
IS INSIDE A TEAR!
Now I just stare into the sun
And I see everything I've ever done
I think I could've been someone
But I cannot stop what has begun
And there is nowhere left to run
I think I could have been someone
Now I just stare into the sun |
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| Can't you ever be happy? |
[Oct. 2nd, 2005|03:54 am] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| | annoyed | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Nine Inch Nails - Only | ] |
Ok... first off I'd like to say you're all fucking shitheads. How's that? Great. Man I feel better.
I'm so fucking tired of being stuck with this double standard of being "that pessimistic cynical kid" and being "that kid who has a pretty good fucking outlook on the future".
"That asshole! He made this negative comment!"
What the fuck! WHICH AM I?
Am I that pessimistic cynical kid that thinks the world is going to come to an end and has an entire fucking party planned around it?
Am I that kid who has a pretty good fucking outlook on the future, who's doing what he wants to in life, is giddy thinking about his advancement in the work-force and in life?
lol that sucks....
"Dude can't you ever fucking be happy?!"
FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! F U C K Y O U!
I've tried pretty fucking significantly to break the mold of being THAT pessimistic cynical kid. At one time I thoroughly enjoyed it. I took it as a compliment. However I now realise, it wasn't me being an asshole on purpose... it wasn't me being cynical. It was just me being REALISTIC. In what I thought was being realistic. I certainly didn't fucking go out of my way to have this doom and gloom outlook. I just thought of the worst... well shit, what if this happens? Then it's not going to work out. Yeah... you can take anybody to be like "omgzor if this happ3ns then we'll have liek a million dollars one day!" but no. I'm more of the guy that's like "shit what if this goes wrong?"
And you know what? That's made me stronger than any of you fucking assholes who only thinks of things positively!
Why?
BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO FUCKING BACKUP PLAN! YOU HAVE NO FUCKING PLAN B! YOU HAVE NO CONTINGENCY PLAN! YOU'RE FUCKED! AND GOOD! FUCK YOU!
omgz0r I'm liek not the leader of the world... whatever shall I do?
Look... this is who I am. I'm that kid who's tired of being ganged up on. I'm that kid who can take a joke, but gets tired of it when it goes too far. I'm that kid who can handle it when he's the butt end of the joke, but knows when it should be over. I'm that kid who will play a joke on you but I will fucking STOP it when I know it's passed it's humor and fun level and has gotten personal. I'm THAT kid who cares about all his friends, no matter how badly they treat me. I'm that kid who tries to make sure you're doing an awesome job, no matter how much you suck. I'm that kid, who cares.
I'm Jeremy
Why don't I get any respect?
Who the fuck am I, Rodney Dangerfield?
Woe is me.
All I'm looking for in life... are friends that will treat me like I'm somebody they care about. Friends who will defend me when I'm attacked, physically or emotionally. And most importantly, somebody that will love me for me.
Sometimes I feel as though I ask for too much.
Whatever... I can deal with the friends pretending like I'm cool. I mean fuck, I sure do them enough favors for them to at least PRETEND.
What I need most is a girl. Plain and simple. And whatever if it's my girlfriend or somebody that I love and or she loves me. I'm just looking for appreciation and that's it. Appreciation is not equal to love, commitment or marriage. It's just appreciation. Plain and simple.
http://dictionary.reference.com/search?q=appreciation
For all of you clowns that failed english.
I suppose that does it for my ranting tonight. I'm just fucking tired of being underappreciated... the fall guy... the guy that takes shit too seriously. And no... I'm not being fucking contradictory. If you thought that... refer to the top of the entry.
In any event... I'm tired... I'm annoyed... I'm in bed...
Who wants in? |
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| I'm at work |
[Sep. 29th, 2005|09:14 am] |
But in any event, since I left a message on Kim's lj, I must put this in mine... it apparently is written.
leave a comment with your name
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written. |
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| Wow... |
[Sep. 19th, 2005|10:53 pm] |
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Woah buddy... |
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| Where the sun never dies |
[Jun. 23rd, 2005|04:49 pm] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| |  unimpressed | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Blindside - Eye of the Storm | ] |
YHeah so it's June 23rd I guess and I've suddenly fallen into a really shitty mood. I was outside in the backyard playin basketball when I suddenly just felt like shit... threw the ball, turned off the music and came inside. I'm not sure what it was that hit me, but I have to go to work in 10 minutes and that pisses me off even more. For some reason I just feel like whatever I do right now really doesn't matter much. What's the point in anything right now? Normally I'm pretty logical and have no drama but right now I'm just unexplicably unimpressed with the world.
I hope I'm not in this funk for too long, then I just seem like a total ass. Ah well
Please come closer
Cause I don't even
Touch you anymore
Please see
I'm walking into
The eye of the storm
And I'll still
Come out loving you
Even more
Blindside owns.
You suck. |
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| I'm not dead yet |
[Jun. 10th, 2005|09:23 pm] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| |  hot | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Cricket Engine - Taglalongest Winterplug | ] |
Well just a quick update I haven't been up to much lately. I stepped on a rusty nail which was sweet and have to get a tetanus shot Monday wewt! I love that it's fatal. In any event summer is goin alright so far (at least it's nice out) and blah blah blah. I wanted to update but I've suddenly lost all motivation to do so. At the moment my dad is pretty much breaking everything near the TV because the Cable isn't workin. btw I hate people who can't talk to more than one person at a time... that is all. |
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| Yeah... |
[May. 14th, 2005|10:37 pm] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| |  disappointed | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Discovery channel in the back | ] |
Another shitty Saturday night... woo... |
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| America! Fuck Yeah! |
[May. 12th, 2005|01:26 pm] |
| [ | I'm all like... |
| |  rushed | ] |
| [ | I'm rockin to |
| | Muse - New Born | ] |
Next tuesday is the release date of Team America: World Police! I'm fuckin pumped.
To anyone who hasn't seen the movie yet - you WILL watch it with me, and you WILL love it damn it!
I think that's all for now - I'm headin to the gym with Tom latas. |
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